Don’t feel this pressure to eat “healthy” in recovery. Right now, EATING is healthy. Have soda with every meal. Go a few days without fruit. Cook everything in butter. Salt. Nothing diet. Full fat dairy. Cheese. Look at the food people call junk and call it treasure. Enjoy. Enjoy food. And fuck anyone who tells you recovery is Clif bars and green smoothies.
Sometimes recovery is waking up early to write in coffee shops and practicing yoga and eating lots of fruit and chocolate and sometimes it’s staying in bed all day and hiding from the world until you can stop crying. All of this is okay. What’s important is that you take care of yourself no matter what kind of day you’re having.